Life, as I see it…

the thing about doing your final internship report is that, after spending the whole day writing something, the last thing you’d look for to escape your days work is write a blog….

and that is the reason i did not blog in june.
anyways, still working on the final report, still a little bit lazy to write my blog, but ive been putting it off for too long, so here goes.

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cant think of anything. sigh.

okay starting for real now.

life is pretty simple for me now. been going to work late, and coming home early, and not doing much work in between. lol. (no, this is not a smiley of one guy holding both his hands up, its L.O.L, as in laugh out loud. zzz)

with the coming of the juniors, (i have 2 under me btw), life has been pretty sweet. i passed all my tasks to them, saying its all part of  the “hands-on training”. hoho. smart eh. while they’re toiling away with the hard labour, im chilling at the lab, away from my supervisors’ eyes, and doing my final internship report, and some facebooking as well. hihi. okay, sometimes maybe more fb-ing than report-writing.

actually i did mean what i said about the “hands-on training”. i really did mean for them to learn everything while im still there. (if you actually thought im bullying my juniors coz im super lazy, shame on you!). coz honestly my senior did a pretty bad job of passing the torch on. and i dont wanna be a pain like her now do I?

anyhow, since my tasks are now divided amongst two people, its not that bad for them. they still have time to chill. which is good, i think. too much stress is never good.

i’d like to think i have a very high tolerance to stress. or as my kelantanese roommate once put it, “a very high ignorance level”. or as I’d like to put it, I’m just uber cool. haha.

but to be frank, I’m not that cool actually. I always get stressed out. sometimes for the smallest of reasons. it’s just that i don’t show it. i have a very emotionless face sometimes. a friend i once went out with said i’d make a very bad haggler (i.e : penawar harga barang jadi rendah). coz even if the price was real pricey, i’d not show the slightest hint of shock or any relevant emotion whatsoever (coz i can’t think of another emotion one would portray at the moment. see how emotionless i am sometimes?! lol)

i try to keep my cool. it would probably be uncool to show how shocked you are at the price of a GFX card for example (find the word that shows im a computer addict). however, that uncoolness would probably get you a better price. which is probably why sometimes girls make better hagglers. (yes, in general guys ar cooler than girls. haha) which is also why i always bring my mother along when i plan on buying something expensive. haha.

okay, ive lost track of what i was saying and do not know how to proceed.

oh, did i mention my internship ends next week?

(refer back here later)

WOOT!

(woot! is kinda like yeay!, only more nerdy)

ah, sidetracking a bit. please dont be too offended if i type or text you “wtf”. its not as offensive as you might think. it depends on the usage really. usually, if a wtf is preceded or followed by a lol, as in “lol wtf” or “wtf lol”, its not meant to be hurtful. really depends on the occasion you’re using it and who you’re using it with. an appropriate example would be saying to your close friend “bodoh la ko..”. its not offensive as compared to saying it to someone you JUST met. get it?
(if you still dont get it then stfu and dont use wtf k. haha. lol.)

the reason for the long explanation is that i said lol wtf to someone the other day, and she got upset. guess she’s not that big of a cyber geek as me. lol wtf. haha.

ah. since im elaborating so much on the use of internet shortforms, maybe i should explain a few here….

wait, that would be boring…

wait again, it already IS boring…

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moving on, lol.

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(i seem to be stuck. crap.)

sigh, if only i could type up my report as fast as this. haha. as of right now, my report is around 7000 words long. if im not mistaken it was 6000 words yesterday. not bad eh. i jokingly said to a friend the other day, in malay, “this is  6 months work cramped into a few weeks!”. “how so?”, the friend asks. “coz my blog is roughly 1000 words per entry and i only write once a month, and that’s if im feeling hardworking… (rasa rajin. lol).”

lol.

i am never good at goodbyes or anything that’s remotely sad. despite my cool exterior (lol), i am quite soft on the inside (except for the bones). i tend to suddenly reminisce on all the good times ive spent with that person and suddenly feel the need to justify all the un-nice things he / she has done to me, and suddenly feel sad that he / she is leaving.

and it is a feeling that sucks. zzzz.

(no, the “zzzz” does not mean ive fallen asleep.)

(although it COULD mean someone reading this has. lol.)

okay, getting back to what i was saying (please refer back). my internship finishes next week. it is a mixture of feelings. im feeling glad, and also slightly sad. regardless of how much i disliked the tons of work, the un-appreciation of work or effort, the being-looked-down-upon feeling, there were some good times. to say that i totally hated the experience would be a lie. all in all, it was a very good learning experience, no matter how hard it may be at times, i enjoyed and will cherish every moment of the 32 weeks journey.

for a 20 year old boy (yes i still think im a boy, thank you), 8 months is quite a long time. and now its coming to an end. im awfully happy that its finally coming to an end. haha. (told ya it was a mixture of feelings).

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yea, im running out of things to say.

last week, one of the trainees at J&J finished her internship period (not the other period ok. lol). i am unsure how it happened, but me and her ended up exchanging farewell gifts with each other. lol. she gave me this glass tablet with a poem titled “friendship” engraved on it. which i must say is extremely thoughtful.

i, being the extremely-good-at-picking-gifts guy that i am, bought her a mug.

yes, a mug.

and painted on that mug is…..

(adding a pause to create excitement and anticipation)

“Good Morning. Let the stress begin!”

how thoughtful.

wtf. wtf. wtf. wtf.

i was cursing myself the entire trip back home after work. in defense of myself and my extremely inappropriate gift, i was looking for something to give to her that upon looking on it, would definitely remind her of the fun and crazy me.

not the heartless, sorry-excuse-for-a friend me.

besides cursing myself and being the laughing stock of the friend that drove me home, i was frantically thinking of how to salvage this situation (or friendship, perhaps). i mean, one gift can change everything! and so, after my friend’s laughter has died out (although i swear i can still hear him laughing after dropping me off), i followed my most feminine instincts (lol) and texted from the heart.

with fingers crossed, i texted (although how one would text / sms with his fingers crossed is beyond me)

“Hello. Saya sudah buka u punya hadiah. So touching Probably shud hav given u something similar, but then it wud not be sumthing that reminds u of me especially. Take care!”

Fingers still crossed, i waited for the reply.

First 30 seconds passed, no reply.

5 minutes, still no reply.

10 minutes, nothing.

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zzzz.

(I fell asleep)

lol. i just came back from work, of course im tired!

and then it came. it woke me up from the nap i accidentally took with my fingers still crossed (which is probably not good for the fingers, but who cares really). half awake, i read the reply.

“Haha, ur cup realy wil make me remember u always, if have destiny, hope we can meet again, take care also, yaxin from johnsin & johnsin :-D”

FUH! LEGA!

that was a close one.

in my semi-conscious state, i almost replied ” bukan cup la, mug.”, but thank God my brain was functioning more properly than when i bought the mug.

note to self : when buying a gift for a girl next time, ignore all sense of sarcasm and buy something lovey dovey.

there is a very fine line between being nice and being mean. good and evil. funny sarcasm and not-funny-at-all-borderline-cruel sarcasm. pray you don’t accidentally slip to the dark side.

till next time, cheers!

take care.

ciao.
p/s : in case your wondering, johnsin & johnsin is not a typo error, just a friend joke that me and the ppl at J&J understand. although yaxin might be a typo. or she doesn’t know how to spell my name. lol. at least we’re still talking

ok. dah update. bye bye blog. haha.

(ditarik telinga oleh blog utk teruskan)

ouch.

er, hi. honestly i had not planned at all to update my blog tonight, but after reading a comment from a friend at his blog, i decided to show him how my mind is chock-full of so many ideas and stories that i can conjure up a 1000 word blog just like that (snaps his fingers).

how foolishly arrogant humans can be sometimes.

(thinking of the next line..)

After several tries to see the definition of finger snap on wiki failed miserably (stupid internet), I decided to write about something else.

Lately my mind has been thinking about my coming semester. In few weeks time, I shall be a senior. (still clicking “Try again” button on wiki page) I may be somewhat influenced by my increasingly jiwang and desperate friends (penghargaan ke sapik), but my mind keeps thinking about how almost everyone is rushing to find themselves a life partner.

Apparently, most find it extremely difficult to find a partner after university years. Even the most unexpected of people have a bf/gf. (not-so-vague hint : current kelantanese roommate ). It is quite hard to digest that the people that usually condemn the “coupling” phenomena (i.e: Rakan Masjid), are joining in the supposedly hedonistic trend. (not referring to my roommate, but others perhaps). If I may quote a line from a book i just finished reading last weekend (and have been waiting for its sequel ever since), “Even Holy Men are men”.

If there’s one thing I do not like, it’s hypocrites. I hope I’m not a hypocrite, but in truth, we all are, some perhaps more than others. Yes, we are. The way I act when I’m with my parents is a bit different from the way I act with my friends. Not a different person altogether, but slightly different, mostly out of respect. And I’m pretty sure most people are the same.

Getting back to my original topic, when I think about my university years slowly but surely coming to an end, I start to think if I’m actually going to find someone. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not desperate to the point I imagine myself going to the zoo with my girlfriend to look at elephants (penghargaan kedua kepada sapik), its just that the thought of it pops into my head sometimes and it makes me somewhat worried. Moreover most of my close friends are already planning when they’re getting married. WTF!

Gosh, how depressing is the blog this time. honestly I don’t like to write depressing blogs. I dunno, there is enough pain in this world as it is, why spread around more?

There’s this one person in my office. He’s a real pain in the “donkey” when it comes to work, but apart from work, he’s actually a nice guy i think. A bit dorky, but overall a nice person. Friendly, humorous (although at times over the top), sarcastic are words that one would use to describe him. I would also like to note here that this person is NOT me. haha. He’s actually around 30 years old.

He has a job that he seems to enjoy, a respected position in a multinational company, somewhat plain-looking but not the ugliest in the bunch, and an overall nice personality. The thing that bothers me the most about him is that he’s not married.

And in more ways than one, I see myself in this person. I have big ambitions. I work hard (compared to other interns).What if I’m to turn to into him in a couple of years? Who’s to say I’m not? Perhaps the reason he works so bloody hard is to overcome overwhelm the loneliness? He seems to have no problem talking to women, so why is he not married?! Surely women have married (and divorced) people that are worse than him, yet why is this person, (however he obnoxious might be sometimes due to his no-way-but-my-way attitude), not married?

Is it because he did not find himself a girlfriend during his university years? My parents didn’t meet each other at the university. But that was years ago. Who knows, perhaps the trend has changed nowadays. Perhaps it was just not meant to be for him? Obviously I do not want it to happen to me also, but what should I do? zzz. This sucks. Maybe my laid-back attitude will not help in this department. lol. After all, as my friend said, the well will not go looking for the timber. lol. (penghargaan kepada sado on the well-rojaked proverb. almost didn’t spot what was wrong the first time)

Honestly, I don’t think I’m fully ready for commitment. It’s hard for me to imagine I’m only allowed to speak to only ONE girl and not be allowed to go out with other girls, if only for a casual outing. Because that’s what marriage is. It is highly unacceptable for a husband to go out with a female friend of his, and it is also the same scenario for the wife. The husband is bound by custom and culture to go out only with his guy-friends and the wife is also allowed to go out with her girl friends only.

I can’t imagine how, or why for that matter would I limit myself to these rules and restrictions. Sure, most of the time I hang out with my guy-friends, but sometimes I do get bored and I do ask my girl friends to go out. And sometimes its only me and the girl. Honestly, its just an outing, it is hardly romantic, I just enjoy talking to a girl sometimes.

Okay, okay, fair enough, even if I had a girlfriend, I would still be able to go out with my girl friends, but to what extent? Surely the girlfriend would limit what I can and cannot do, and at some point, she might will get jealous no matter how much I tell her she’s the only one bla3, we’re only human. I’d probably be jealous too if a guy constantly asks my girl out.

… lost track of the reason i’m writing. how appropriate that my playlist is currently playing The Reason by Hoobastank.

I just want you to know,

I’ve found a reason for me,

To change who I used to be,

A reason to start over new,

And the reason is you…

Sigh, it’s amazing how the hardest of questions can be answered with the simplest arrangement of words in a song.

When you’re married (or perhaps in most of my peers case, found true love), you don’t really care about anyone else, well, not as much as that special someone. you don’t mind not talking to your other girl-friends, as long as you can talk to that one person, if only for the briefest of moments. Sacrifices have to be made, but when the right person comes along, you’d do it in a heartbeat.

I understand now why some friends of mine did the things they do. I was ignorant then, I was arrogant, I still am.

Maybe my time is not here yet. Maybe it never will be.

I’m hoping it will be.

Whenever that may be.

Till next time, take care.                                                                                     Peace.

it is beyond my own understanding as to why tonight is special. perhaps it is the first time i went to the local pasar malam, after so many months of staying here. perhaps its because of the 11pm bath i just took as it was so hot and humid (typical malaysian weather). perhaps its because its monday tomorrow, and im just looking for a reason not to sleep. in my books, its not tomorrow until you sleep, tomorrow does not start at 12 am. whatever it is or was, it got me to write in my blog, so it was a good thing.

as i struggle to type while being in the dark, (literally, as my roommates wanna sleep and they turned off the lights), i again began to wonder what was it i wanted to write in this old, dusty (conceptually) blog.

after so many months of no updates, no one would ever visit this blog again. hell, even i dont visit this blog anymore. haha. perhaps that would be best. no pressure to update. which is what i intended for in the first place.

the thing about not writing for so long, so many months, so many minutes, (i like arranging the words this way, makes it and me sound epic and sophisticated. haha), you’d have so many things to write about, you won’t know where to start first. for goodness sake, some people blog every single day, and they still have loads of things to write about. my life is just not that interesting. haha. with that being said, let us begin.

death has come and claimed a life of something close to me today. it was something very close to me, without it i feel so helpless in today’s cyber-fast world. alas, life must go on, and it too, if given the gift of thought and speech, would not want me to mourn its passing. thus i bid farewell to my dear mouse, you have been a dear friend for these past months. no, i am not talking about my hamster, i am talking about my mouse, as in “click click” not “cheep cheep”. haha. if hamsters actually go “cheep cheep”. haha.

“what will happen to a face in a crowd when it gets too crowded?”

with a crowd of 6 billion people at the moment, does our individual existence on this earth really matter? what does one more human being mean? honestly, i myself do not know, as i myself am one of those faces in the crowd. perhaps jason mraz would know, as he seems like an intelligent person, plus he was the one that thought up of the quote above. its in one of his songs. and just so happens i was listening to it when i was writing. thought it was something interesting to share, something to get the juices flowing, apart from the usual brain numbing stuff i write. haha.

have you ever been to an f1 race?  one word describes it. loud. ridiculously loud. i would not recommend one that has a weak heart or a low maximum safe threshold of hearing to go to one. but for someone like me, (lazy and sarcastic) (no, not lazy and sarcastic, likes fast cars and can handle loud noises. haha), it is worth every penny (assuming you actually paid for the tickets in pennies). the sound of an f1 car roaring past you in Sepang is similar to the sound of thunder, only it has a more coarse, harsh quality to it. if given the choice of listening to f1 cars or thunder as a form of torture or punishment, i would most definitely pick thunder. despite the eardrum-shattering noise, it was an enjoyable experience, i would definitely go again next year if given the chance.

the thought of studying for the rest of your life would be terrifying for some, but i find myself devising a way to actually never graduate from UTP, just to avoid jumping into the working world. i guess it goes without saying that i am greatly loathing my working experience in johnson and johnson. i now understand the dishonorable actions of my predecessor. i would not abandon my responsibilities on an uninformed new practical trainee, i am far too responsible (however near “far” may be) to do that, however i understand why she did it to me. the stress is almost unbearable at times. if i were a pillar supporting the weight of a building (relating to stress), the building would most probably be the leaning tower of pisa. the damn thing is already leaning. lol. (hopefully that made sense. haha)

moving on from the lame engineering comparison, i dread each day that i have to go to that god-forsaken place. i count the very minutes to reach the blessed weekends and i subconciously programmed my brain to keep track of the number of seconds before my dreaded internship period ends. sigh.

to be fair, i have learned a lot in the past 4 months. the things that i learn here do have some relevance to what i have studied, and probably will see again in my actual working environment. the pay is quite high compared to other companies. but the working environment is a very stressful one. my supervisors aren’t really helping. they themselves are stressed out, but perhaps they have better motivation (i.e:their pay is good). they are stressed out and they vent some of that stress at me at times. which is making me so stressed coz i dont have that much of a motivation.

my actual supervisor is not giving me the marks i want, is extremely emotional, finds faults in almost everything i do, passes every single meaningless and time-consuming tasks that she does not want to do to me, and has very bad communication skills. or maybe i have very bad hearing skills. regardless, in conclusion, i want to go back to UTP to study. something i would never imagine myself saying.

i do not wish to stop writing, but my brain is sending signals to my eyes to occasionally blink, which probably means my body is tired. which means i should probably sleep to avoid dozing off while reviewing those boring BRR documents. i sincerely hope my supervisor will lighten up in the near future, and see that i am really trying to impress her by listening to her comments about being more alert and proactive (whatever the hell that meant) and having a more positive mood and outlook on the tons of non-engineering related work she throws at me. controlling myself from yelling at her when she criticizes and mocks me for even the tiniest bit of mistake is proving to be more difficult by day. even more so when i think that my scholar, JPA is actually paying UTP approximately 4k+ for me to work in this hellhole.

as i end my literary experiment, i wish everyone a happy and prosperous life. life is short, live it. until we meet again my dear blog.

whenever that may be.

ciao.

hello.

apologies for not being able to put up a new post sooner. for some reason, when times i felt like posting, there seemed to be a problem with the internet connection, and when i didn’t, the connection was perfect.. haha. maybe its a sign for me to stop blogging or something. hahah.

anyways, apart from that, i am at my rent house (rumah sewa? lolz.). so only recently did we get internet connection, so even if i wanted to write something, i couldnt. 

this time, i’d just like to say a lil’ bit about my internship. as im sure most of my fellow colleagues and bloggers have already done.

my senior, the person that did the internship a semester earlier than me, just finished her internship period and so now, all her work is passed down to me. this wouldnt be a big deal if she’d actually prepared me properly… in my own personal point of view, which may not necessarily be true, she couldnt care less whether i knew what my responsibilities were or not, she just wanted to get the hell out of that place. haha. coz all she taught me during the one month she was still there is how to do simple stuff. and then suddenly, during the handover meeting, (which is the meeting in which she hands over all her work to me), she lists down all these things that i have never done before, and im supposed to be doing after she left… and i was like “i am so dead”. X_X haha.

but seriously, i didnt have a clue what she just said. and i was really freaking out. what the hell am i supposed to do after this?! and when i asked her, she’d go about saying things like, “it was like this when i came here” and “my senior never taught me anything and i had to learn all this by myself, so you have to also…”. oh my god, how irritating some human beings can be sometimes…

and to top it all off, i had to go fetch my parents from KLIA coz they were coming back from doing their haji and bring them back to Ipoh, so i wont be in the office for two days. which means, i couldnt learn anything about what she just told me. crap.

and so, later that day, while cursing myself for having such a lousy lazy senior, and also praying for my well-being in the next 7 months, i drove to my uncle’s house, coz his house was nearer to the airport. that night, i slept in a room with my cousin, which was in standard 3, i think.

he was also having a not so good day. he was complaining to me how prefects never get enough credit. they do all these things and they never get anything in return. so i kinda asked him what exactly did he do. so he said he was in charge of lowering the flags at the end of every day… hehe.

but then it occured to me, this is a big deal to him. a real big deal. and he was a bit upset no one gave him the credit he deserved even though what he was doing was of incredible difficulty and of super importance.

it got me thinking. maybe its the same with me. maybe to me all these report writing, meetings, validations, etc, seem extremely difficult to handle, but to other people, my supervisor perhaps, it may seem to be menial tasks that are not even worth their time to handle.

and i think it is. coz when my uncle got home, which was around 10 pm that night, he was talking about this meeting where they had to choose the GM and AGM of something. the meeting got so intense that one person actually went home sobbing, coz he/she (not sure) didnt get assigned or something, which means he/she probably wont have a job in the near future. so there i was thinking, out of all the meetings ive been to, there was never a meeting which someone actually cried and left, so my work must not be that hard. haha.

to my uncle, my work is probably like what my younger cousins work as a prefect looks like to me. so that kinda calmed me down and prepared me for the tasks that awaited me when i came back for work. hehe. 

and also, that night i fetched my parents at KLIA. earlier, my brother and my aunt were talking, “maybe my dad had stopped smoking since he went to Mekah”. hehe. so, when my mother and father arrived, after hugging all the relatives that were there, what does my father do? he grabs a cigarette from his bag. haha. even the guard that was holding the sub-machine gun couldnt stop from snickering. haha. so much for no longer smoking. it was nice seeing my parents after so long.

like any other person that came back from the Holy Lands, my parents had loads of stories to tell. the funniest one being what they did right after they officially got their haji and hajjah. my father even made a video of it. 

“What do you do 15 minutes after you finished your hajj? Burger King!” lolz.

they went to Burger King. haha.

oh yeah, for those that are wondering, life in bandar sunway, where im staying for the period of my internship, is good. i go out often (in stark contrast with my life in utp), i hang out with my friends quite often, and i go to the movies almost weekly. haha. and my allowance money disappears at an exponential rate. haha. and im also about to try ice skating tomorrow. haha.

and thats about all the things i wanted to write. ill admit, this post isnt nearly as long as the other ones. probably coz i dont feel as comfortable writing on someone else’s laptop. fyi, the spelling is laptop, not “ladtop”. -_-. i left the power source for my laptop at my house in ipoh. -_-”.

take care.

till next time, whenever that may be, chow.

hello.

usually i dont post more than once a month, but something happened quite recently that kinda stirred my thoughts and emotions, i guess. (chewah)

there was a death, no, make that two deaths in UTP, on thursday and friday. this one guy died of, of all things, a heart attack. imagine that. while playing football. one assumes that when someone plays football, he probably has been playing for awhile, therefore should be fit enough to play the game, and probably know when to stop playing, so to get a heart attack while playing,.. is bizzarre.

the 2nd guy, died in an accident involving himself and… (this may sound funny but try not to laugh coz its disrespectful..), a kerbau. also known as a buffalo. for those that do not know, kerbaus (pandai2 je letak ’s’ for plural of kerbau. haha.) always roam around the roads infront of utp at nite, and since they are dark in color and there arent any lights lighting up the roads, utp students often hear tales of people having accidents with these behemoths. and believe me, they are quite big and quite strong. there was one story that i heard, a group of ppl were in a kancil and they banged into a kerbau, and the kerbau actually stared back at them for a few seconds before actually moving away. its as if the kancil banging into the blasted kerbau was like a mosquito bite or sumthing. (who’d ever thought i’d use so many animals in one sentence. haha.)

of course, the thought of students, almost the same age as me, dying, is somewhat scary. but who cares rite? ppl die all the time. even babies die. sure its a bit scary, but i dont even know these ppl, so no big deal….

or so i thought.

after finishing our exams, (yeay!), me and the guys went to ipoh to blow some steam.. it was the usual, bowling, movies, some of them went to mcd after that, but i was already lacking sleep, so i passed. quantum of solace is nice, btw, not as nice as casino royale, but still nice. action wise, top notch, but the story was moving a bit too fast for me to fully digest whats going on. but all in all, a nice movie. as for the bowling, i sucked big time. cant really say it was the lane, coz there were other ppl that had better scores even though the lane wasnt in tip top condition,  i guess it was just me. i scored 99 and 98. cant remember the last time i scored BELOW 100, so it kinda sucked for me.

anyways, while waiting for the midnight movie, some of the guys went for karaoke. see, the karaoke place is in the bowling alley area, and so we bumped into other utp friends there. fyi, it is almost impossible for you not to bump into a utp student at jusco during the weekends. especially so after the exams… duh. haha. so anyways, i went there a bit late coz i had to, er, shake hands with the president. haha. and so when i got there, my friend came up to me and told me something that is quite,.. disturbing…

if you guys recall, i became a facilitator for the orientation week this sem. so as a facilitator, i had one group of students to handle. my friend, the one that came up to me also was a faci and also had a group. it turns out that, the guy that had the heart attack, was in his group. and i know that guy..

well, not to say i know him very well, i just know him, as in i know who my friend was talking about when he mentioned it to me.

i guess it has a big impact on me.  as far as i know, none of my friends have died. sure, there have deaths in my family before, but no one that was actually younger than me. yes, he was actually younger than me. born in 1990 if my calculations are correct.

to see this guy alive and well at one time, and to suddenly hear that he’s dead, is… i dont know what the word is for this one. guess this goes to show death knows no boundaries.

it really opened my eyes. life is short, shorter than i may think, apparently. i need to live life more. no more wasting time, staying alone at home, doing nothing but sleep and  play computer games all the time. (i barely play any computer games nowadays, but still… ). its time for change. and what better time to make a change in my life than during my internship. i’ll be working, which means i will have some extra cash. plus, ill be in the vicinity of kuala lumpur, which means i can try out stuff ive always wanted to try while i was in pasum but never got the chance (i.e: ice skating! :D). hehe.

plus, i should have more money to go travelling. hehe. i do like travelling to new places, just that id rather not go alone, id prefer it if some friends, or family perhaps, could come with me. but thats the problem really, not everyone likes travelling. and not that many people can afford it. even worse, not many people think that its a good way to spend your money… haihs… i guess they’ve never heard of the proverb “jauh perjalanan, luas permandangan”. (dunno what the english version is, but ill find out later).

i feel like writing more, but i dont really have anything else to say, so i guess i’ll stop here. oh yeah, in case anyone’s wondering, i’ll be doing my internship at johnson and  johnson, petaling jaya. hehe. ill be an intern for 8 months, starting this december, so plenty of time to do stuff during that time. hehe. oh yeah, im not sure, but i dont think there’ll be any internet connection where i’m staying, so probably wont be blogging so often. (macam la “often” sgt skrg ni. haha.)

erm, another important thing to mention, my parents are going for haji this wednesday (26th november 2008), so i’d appreciate it if you guys could pray for my parents safety and well-being. thanks a lot.

last but not least, i was actually planning something different for this post, but since i didnt even plan on writing this post, the “something different” will have to wait till the next time i blog. hehe.

oh yeah! totally forgot about the majlis doa selamat and tahlil (refer to previous posting). all in all, it was a successfull ceremony. thank you very2 much to everyone that came. it meant a lot to me. semoga Allah memberkati tuan2 dan puan2 sekalian. i’d blog about it, but there really isn’t that much to blog about, hehe. but a friend of mine did blog about it, you can read it here. (ive never actually tried linking another page, so forgive me if the link doesnt work. huhu.)

and, the final ‘last but not least’, hehe, i’d like to wish everyone that have NOT finished their exams, good luck, do your best, to those that HAVE and are in their sweet holidays, happy holidays, stay safe, and to those that are ‘unlucky’ in the sense that their holidays have been cut short due to the internship programme, good luck with you internship, take care, especially the people that are going overseas, and i’ll see you guys in 8 months!

take care everyone.

ciao~

apparently, friendster has this new thingy where i can save what i wrote yesterday…. eh wait.

hello ppl. tlupa plak.

k. lets move on. as i was saying, friendster blog has this new thingy (or maybe its an old thingy, coz i never really explore the possibilities with this thing) where i can save what i wrote and come back and finish it off some other time. which is sweeeet, since i always have stuff to say at times, but when i actually do open up my blog to write something, the idea is already boring to me, (although it might be interesting to you guys), so i end up not writing anything… huhu.

so the reason im telling you guys this is that im testing this new(?) feature out. ill write something today (29th October 2008), and maybe when i get the time, i’ll write something else, whenever that may be..

actually the reason that got me writing again, a bit early according to my schedule if i might add, is because some of my friends have started writing their blogs, and i dunno, seeing them write, makes me want to write something, which is childish, i know, but what the heck. haha.

is there anything interesting at all to write about today? hmm. not really. all boring stuff, as usual. o yea, a sad fact, i still havent gotten a placement for my internship, but for some reason i myself am not aware of, i am surprisingly extremely optimistic on the matter, even though there is no reason for me to be this way. most of the people in my course, most of my friends, have gotten a placement, some even have more than one, but i am somehow unaffected by all this. sure it kinda sucks when they start talking bout where they’re going to stay, what they’re going to do, who’s going with them, bla3, and i dont really have anything to say to join in the conversation, but i dont really mind. in fact, im actually feeling happy for them. which is something i usually am not inclined to do. haha.

okay. enuf for today. lets wait for next time aite.

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its november 4th, 3 32 am. i finally found the time to write something..

you can never really see where your life is headed. sure, you may plan, predict, but you can never truly know where its going for sure, until you’re there.

b4, i talked about how i havent gotten any internship placement yet. the next day, i got 2 offers. unexpected. well, i was expecting to get offered somewhere, just not 2 offers, in the same day… and just yesterday, i got another one. so that makes 3. weird huh. out of nowhere these offers pop up. ah well, that is life.

ive run out of things to write about. interesting things, anyway. probably coz my brains in a jam from all the studying and the coffee i just drank.

owh. remembered something. how fun it is, to know that you’re in your study week, and some of your friends in other universities, have finished their exams. they are out of their misery, yours is only beginning. -_-”

my family is having a doa selamat and tahlil next week. odds are the ppl that read this blog are invited. if youre not, tell me. a person that reads my blog, should be invited, even though i may not know you very well. its kind of a big thing for me, this ceremony. for the most obvious reason, its a gathering to wish my parents well on their haji trip. 2ndly, bcoz, most of my friends in UTP havent been to my house, so for me to have a solid reason to invite them to come to my house is a good thing.

i really cant think of anything else worth writing now. guess ill stop here and continue some other time.

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november 6th, 3.27 am.

this shall probably be the last time i write in this particular post. afraid this post may be wee bit too long if i continue.

honestly, there really is nothing to write about today. apart from celebrating afiq’s bday. which was nice i guess.

moving on, im nearing the 2nd half of my study week and i have barely done any studying at all. which is very bad… curse all these projects that need to be finished… why have these useless projects anyways? have i learned anything from them? okay, honestly, yes. one. i learned that if you wait long enough, you can copy somebody else’s work. haha.what a waste of time…

and it spoils the study mood. you’re supposed to be concentrating on your studies fully during the study week, but since you’re swamped with work and other stuff, the concentration’s gone. proof? some of the guys went out for bowling just now. and tomorrow, some are going for quantum of solace. (if you dont know what this is, you definitely arent a movie buff). by the way, although i never really was a fan of the bond series, but i definitely liked casino royale.. it was really nice! i am definitely looking forward to quantum of solace.

at this point, for my internship, i shall probably be going to johnson and johnson. yeah, the shampoo company. ive heard only good things bout the place, and the pays not bad. but some seniors have said that the workhours sometimes can be quite long. instead of going off at 5 30 pm for example, try 5 30 am. i kid u not. wow huh? but of course you’ll get the next day off.. very interesting eh?

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I fell asleep.

november 6th, 1.13 pm.

due to falling asleep, i have forgotten what i was going to write down. but i did get some ideas after reading other ppls blogs. call it a realization if you will (and if there is such a word as realization)

there are so many blogs out there. really. so many. why? ive written some time ago about why ppl stop writing blogs, but never really why ppl start writing blogs..

do we crave the attention? do we need the interaction with other ppl so desperately that we post blogs for ppl to read and comment and go to sometimes extreme lengths to promote our blog? lets ponder about it for a moment. what do we really get when ppl read our blogs? when ppl post a comment?

sure, some of the super popular bloggers can really change the world with their blog (the chancellor of my university for example, che det), and some blogs that are popular enuf, they can have advertising to increase the balance in their pockets…

no. im not talking about these ppl. im talking about us. nobodies. (compared to che det, im definitely a nobody, and so are you, i think, unless ur che det and u’ve come to read my blog, then that makes me a somebody, coz che det is reading my blog… haha.) why do we write? we dont really have anything to benefit from it. yet we are excited when we spot the new comments on our blog. do we really care THAT much on what ppl think about us? are we really that lame? haha

uish. i should not have brought this up here. this topic on its own could cover one entire posting, and ive already written some stuff… i dont want my blog to be too long, now do i?

here’s what i think, if it matters anyway. humans crave attention. we crave it on every level. we sometimes wear clothes that are attractive so that ppl will stare. we sumtimes talk to almost any stranger for no apparent reason than to fill the time or avoid an awkward moment. we bring our handphones everywhere, chat with absolute strangers in chatrooms, join social websites, forums, and last but most definitely not the least, hop from one blog to another and write our own blogs.

it is a way to be heard. blogs. when che det’s thoughts couldnt get into mainstream media, he started blogging. and im guessing its the same for us. for every blogger.

blasted ppl keep popping into my room… nk tulis blog dgn aman pun susah..

i shall make it short then. ppl like attention. ppl want to be heard. blog is a way to be heard. some are so desperate for their voices to be heard, they promote their blog to extreme lengths (my opinion anyways, not necessarily true). because in the end, no matter how much we say we dont care, we really do care, if only a little, about what ppl think about us, and whether ppl give a damn about us or not.

so thats why i get happy or excited when i see new comments. there is someone out there that actually cares enuf to actually say something to what i have to say. haha. pathetic eh? i know. in the end, we are all pathetic ppl. haha. nobody can live alone.

and this concludes my experiment on this new style of blogging. i have to say, its been somewhat fun, no pressure to write so much in so little time. but somewhat tiring as well, as i need to face this blog thing for so many days, when i usually face it only once a month. how u guys manage to post so many in so short a time perplexes my timid mind. haha.

damn it, more ppl popping in! perlu ke masuk sini.. -_-” shuh2. stop lah cmni.

tk cr.

ciao~

yelah, yelah, aku update… lolz.

hello everyone.. slmt hari raya. maaf zahir n batin. halalkan makan minum. sekiranya ada hutang saya yang masih tak terbayar, sila lah ingatkan..

now that thats out of the way, i shall now talk about things i like about puasa n raya in random order. haha. what kind of introduction is this… -____-”

i like raya. it is the one time where everyone is so nice to each other, no one seems to be quarrelling, all arguments are put aside for that one day, and long lost friends pop up out of nowhere to visit you. you suddenly start talking to people you havent talked to in ages, and they too with you. you get to meet all your relatives (most, if not all), be it close or distant ones.. n o yea, did i mention you’ll get loads of cash from your suddenly rich aunts and uncles..? hehe.

i used to look forward to raya so much when i was a kid. but now, it just feels like any other holiday. huhu. sad, i know, but its the truth. i dont really care bout the money i get anymore. the only thing i look forward to during raya is the long holiday and the chance to meet most of my relatives at the same time. huhu.

also, its kinda hard to get into the holiday spirit when there’s tons of work to be done… i actually had nightmares of not submitting my assignments, not finishing my projects.. haihs. raya is just not the same anymore… i still like it, dont get me wrong, but its just not the same….

owh yeah, the thing i liked most bout this raya, is when my parents talked about when i was young. according to them, i didnt like to smile when i was a kid. haha. my dad told to me, “you were so grumpy, that when this one time you actually smiled to the bread-seller (i bought bread and other junk from this bread-seller almost everyday, fyi), he actually gave you free stuff because he was so happy to see you smile”. lolz. when i smiled, i actually got free stuff. maybe my brain at that time stored that little bit of info, coz nowadays i smile almost all the time. i even smile when im in trouble (imagine the joker, but not as scary. haha) . my brain is subconciously trying to get me more free stuff. haha.

i laugh at my own jokes all the time eh? haha. i think its like the sitcoms. they add in the laughs to help make the show funnier. laughter is contagious. so when i laugh at my own jokes, hopefully you’ll laugh at them as well. or laugh at me for being so pathetic. haha.

well that was one thing they told me about my childhood. there are other stuff, but i shall not write them here. want to know more, ask me personally. hehe.

erm, getting back to the topic of raya n puasa, apart from that, there was hardly anything special bout this raya. been there done that. huhu. im actually quite bummed because for this raya i couldnt meet most of my cousins and relatives. eh wait, i did meet most of them, but i didnt meet them all at once… i was with one family during the first day of raya, then they left to go somewhere else, and then another family came, and then they left and another family came… etc2. you get my drift. so of course i met most of my relatives, but its not as fun as meeting all of them together at the same time… huhu.

thats about it for raya. what about puasa… o yea, i had sahur with my eyes closed that one time. haha. and after finishing my plate of rice did i realise i had an extra lauk that i didnt see… haha. padan muka. malas sgt. but it was nice to be able to actually SLEEP before sahur. when i got home, my mum would wake me up for sahur. but in UTP, i was the one that was waking ppl up for sahur, most of the time anyways. i have problem waking up, as you all may have already known if youve been following my blog (lolz), so in order to be able to sahur, i usually dont sleep before sahur. i only sleep after sahur…

sometimes, if i were to accidentally fall asleep before sahur, my whole house would not be having sahur. haha. it happened on the last day i was in UTP before i went home for the raya holidays. since it was the last time we were going to have sahur together, my friends and i had planned to go out of UTP for sahur. BUT, most unfortunate, i fell asleep. i fell asleep, so nobody was awake. nobody was awake, therefore nobody woke up for sahur…. haha. funny eh?

so now you guys know why i skip my classes oh so often during the fasting month. at least its for a good reason rite? hehe. (alasan…)

oh yeah, one more thing i’d like to talk about puasa. i used to think that in the fasting month, i would be able to save some cash, since i wont be eating during the day. only after reaching raya did i realise how wrong i was… huhu. during puasa, i eat during sahur time, (which is around 4 am for me n my housemates in UTP), and during berbuka puasa. during non-fasting months, i eat during lunch and dinner time. so even though its puasa, i still eat the same number of time each day! haha. perhaps even more, because during sahur my brain is thinking “eat as much as you can! so that you wont starve to death during the day!”. haha. and while breaking fast ” eat as much as you can! you almost starved to death during the day, now is the time to recover!” haha.

what makes it worse is that, during puasa, you cant help but want something special to eat during berbuka puasa (break fast, not breakfast). during regular months, i only eat regular food, just to not go hungry, maybe occasionally ill go for something nice. but during fasting month…. huh. its as if i’ll die if i dont eat delicious food.. haha. and of course, slightly more delicious food would cost slightly more. and dont get me started on the jamuan buffet berbuka puasa n etc2. haha. therefore, fasting month not equal to saving month. haha. i save better during regular months.

and thats all for now i think. overall, although its not the same as before, i still like raya n puasa. if i dont celebrate n enjoy raya n puasa, what else will i celebrate? when i think about it, its not all that bad. every year’s celebration of raya n puasa is unique in its own way. 10 years from now, i’ll probably look back to this year and say “those were the good ol’ days..”. hehe. and its true, isnt it? you have to agree with me on this one. if you look back to your raya celebration 10 years ago, you’d definitely say those days were the best raya you’ve ever had. i cant exactly remember what i was doing for raya when i was 9, but i know for sure, i enjoyed it a lot.

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“mawi dah kaya,

siti dah datin,

selamat hari raya,

maaf zahir dan batin.”

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lolz.

cant help but laugh at my own jokes. double lolz.

dah la ni pun curi pantun org. triple lolz.

haha. what the fish.

>_<

thats all for now ppl.

take care. chows.

Wow.

who would’ve thought i’d actually update my layout?! haha. it was unplanned. i visited my own blog, (haha), just to check n see if anyone left any comments. and i saw that it was blue in color. erk. i dont recall it being blue before…

then i realised that friendster had new designs for its blog… probably realising that ppl do read blogs on friendster, they decide to spruce up the designs and all that, probably to keep up with the other blog websites. so, it automatically updated my old boring layout to a new clean-looking blue-colored layout.

which looked weird to me. haha.

so i browsed thru all the layout designs, before choosing this one. this one looks, relaxed. peaceful. calm. hehe. hope u guys like it.

erm, sumone commented to me that i am mixing english and bm too much, and i should start using proper english in my blog. again, i would like to remind everyone that this is not a place for you to learn english! haha. plus im not exactly the best person to be learning english from, as there are lots of blogs out there that have a very high level of english-ness (see how bad my english is.. huhu) to it. some are even written by englishmen (and women, of course) , so you would assume that their level of english is far greater than mine. hehe. im from malaysia, so i tend to speak a little manglish, though i try not to.

just thought id post something before i take my nap before sahur. oh yeah, its the fasting month, and my sleeping schedule is far from normal. even in normal conditions, some consider it to be abnormal, now…. its even worse. i find myself unable to wake up for morning classes nowadays. haha. big surprise there. which is not so funny anymore considering i promised my mom i would not skip anymore classes…. huhu. dont get me wrong, im not PURPOSELY skipping class, its just that sometimes i cant wake up from sleep, sometimes the lecturer organizes a boring adjunct lecture which has no relevance whatsoever to what is coming out in my tests and exams (i study for exams n tests, not knowledge. huhu), so you cant really blame me for skipping all these classes. huhu.

the number of assignments for this semester is astounding! its as if the lecturers are giving as much assignments as humanly possible before we, the 3rd year students go for internship! haha. imagine, one subject actually has 3 assignments in one week… if that isnt deliberately torturing students, i dont know what is. huhu. perhaps the lecturers think that the abundance of work they give us will actually HELP us in improving our grades. well, its not helping. the number of assignments given is not directly proportional to knowledge gained by a student. haha. its not. even without ANY assignments at all, a student can still excel in his/her studies if he/she wishes to and works to achieve it, and even with ALL the assignments in the world, a stubborn/ignorant student wouldn’t gain a thing from all the work he/she has done, if he/she blindly finishes all the assignments without taking a second to understand what he/she is doing, i.e copying. hehe. with so many assignments to be handed in, one can only assume the regular students, such as myself, (or should i say the lazy students, haha), would be copying some, if not all of the assignments… in my humble opinion, lecturers shouldnt give too much assignments. give one per week, tops. that way, students will actually have the time to do the assignments themselves, and by doing so learn more about the task at hand, instead of having to skip class to copy an assignment that he was supposed to do days ago. lolz.

lets stop talking bout studies shall we? im sleepy enuf as it is. erm, i still havent got an internship placement. some friends have already gotten offers, and the number seems to grow by the day. im somewhat shaken, but overall im still optimistic that ill get a relatively good placement. i cant really expect the companies to come beg me to be their intern with an average cgpa.. huhu. some of the companies standards are so high, i dont even meet the minimum requirements to apply for intern, so i decided not to. ah, who cares. in the end, if i still dont get a placement, UTP will secure one for me, so nothing to worry about, really. its just that, obviously everyone has their own preference, where they want to work, what company they want to work with, and i myself am not excluded. but if its not meant to be, then so be it. lets not worry bout things that are uncertain. things will sort themselves out eventually. (slacker mode engaged.) haha.

erm, thats it for now, i think. oh yeah, ive got this one friend who apparently is grammar-crazy nowadays. haha. she deleted her entire blog, partly because she doesnt like all the grammar mistakes that she did. haha. i is not the knowing why she doing that thing, (please dont delete my blog. haha), but she should relax… haha. there’s nothing wrong with using bad grammar in your blog. so long as you get your message out, and the blog-hoppers enjoy reading it, its all good… and this post is partly because she asked me to post sumthing. haha. i dont even know if this one is a good post, because im just rambling about random stuff. ill let you guys decide.

eyh, i really should get to sleeping. need to wake up for sahur coz it seems im the chef on duty for tonite. haha.

later.

chow.

hello everyone.

forgive me for not writing so long. its not that i dont have things to write about, i do. i dont know, maybe im not as dedicated to this blogging thingy as i thought. im not even sure i can be considered a blogger. other bloggers update their blog daily, sometimes several times in a day. i am barely able to pen out my thoughts once a month, which isn’t very productive now, is it.. haha.

despite of the extremely long gaps between posts, i still have some ppl that read my blog… haha. dont you guys have better things to do? lolz. thanks for visiting. and again, sorry for not updating. this one’s for you guys.

since im in the topic of blogs, lets talk about blogs, shall we. when i first started blogging, i often stated that i write only for myself, but if other ppl want to read my posts, its fine with me. then i started liking the comments, be it good or bad, and before you know it, i started writing the blog for other ppl. haha.

if you noticed, my style of writing has changed dramatically from the first post, to this one. i guess even writing styles evolve. in the beginning, i kinda stressed on writing with the correct grammar, correct spelling, a very formal blog if i do say so myself. nowadays… you’d be lucky if you could find one sentence in here that has proper grammar and proper sentence structure and also, a full sentence in english, as i am more and more drawn to manglish… haha. please dont use this blog as a guide to do your english assignment.. haha.

well, waddyaknow… (an example of bad english right here ladies and gents.. lolz). this is my 20th blog posting.. wieee. some ppl might be saying, "20? only 20? lame~". haha. yeah2, i know, but it must count for something right? who wouldve thought id reach 20 posts. im not even 20 years old yet. haha. xd kena mengena, i know.

what should i talk about this time? b4 sitting down, i had loads of ideas on what to write, n now, i cant seem to think of anything…  haish.

let’s talk bout life then. it is the main theme of the blog, after all. life for me has been okay. i was the faci for my university’s orientation. got to meet with the juniors and hopefully helped them settle into university life. passed down my 3 years worth of experience, which was my main objective of joining, so although the organising committee sucked bad, all sorts of things went wrong, it was a nice experience for me.

i joined a treasure hunt for the 1st time this semester. i did join the irc infohunt, but thats like very small-scale. and running around in the library looking for books cant really be considered an actual treasure hunt. haha. for this particular treasure hunt, we travelled a total of about 200 km. there was this one task, where you had to shoot the tin cans down, if you failed, you’d have to eat weird stuff. and my group, all of us being superb sharpshooters, manage to shoot down a grand total of ZERO (0) cans. lolz. so we had to eat the garlic, the asam jawa, the mengkudu, the cup of chilli (or is it chilly, lolz) and 2 raw eggs. wow. i ate the raw eggs. also a first time experience. haha. its not that bad actually. once you get over the thought that it is raw eggs, it doesnt taste that bad… huhu. all in all, it was a fun experience, it was my first REAL treasure hunt, and it was nice for me, i think the committee did a good job on this one. oh yeah, fyi, we didnt win, my team and i, haha. but we did have fun, and thats what matters most.

i also joined a paintball competition. wiee.. im trying all sorts of new stuff this semester. haha. maybe i should try studying instead of wasting time? hahah. actually for the paintball competition, i planned on joining last year, but due to unforeseen consequences, i couldnt. so i was excited to be able to join this year… and wouldn’t you know it, my team got into the finals. haha. but we didnt win first place. we came in 2nd. hehe. nvmnd. to be able to go to the finals is good enuf rite? so dont be so hard on chong wei alrite? hehehe. oh yeah, i got shot 4 times in the tournament. huhu. twice in the chest, making me have a new red-coloured birthmark on my chest, once in the elbow, and one headshot.

im going for my internship in december. im not sure im actually looking forward to it, eh wait, i am, because during internship i wont have to study. haha. i applied to several companies, only one has replied, but im thinking that particular company replies to all non-petronas scholars’ application. hehe. so im not that special. haha. im planning on going to sarawak, simply bcoz i like travelling. now at first, there were a few of us that wanted to go to sarawak, but one guy backed out, now suddenly everyone doesnt want to go sarawak, which to me sucks bad. but im not gonna change my plans just bcoz my friends are abandoning me.. kalau nak ikut kawan, smpy bila tak maju. so what the hell, if it is fated that i go to sarawak alone, fine by me. i dont mind. sarawak, here i come. hehe. oh ye, i just realised something. im going to be totally alone on my 20th birthday this year. crap. my parents are going for their haji end of this year, and they’ll be gone before i go for my internship and also my birthday. which means ill be alone in a place thats completely alien to me, and ill probably be alone, with no friends or family, on that one day that i can truly say belongs to me, my birthday. *sigh*. c’est la vie…

what else is going on in my life… ah yes, it appears that there is an increase in the number of couples in my batch. apparently a lot of ppl have been bitten by the love bug, despite the regular fogging done in utp… huhu. my guess is some of the girls are getting desperate, but then again, when you fall in love, you cant really help it now can you. but what amazes me is how fast these ppl get back into a relationship after getting out of one. its as if they dont really mind who they’re with, so long as they’re with someone. i mean, would it kill you to wait for awhile, browse thru the choices, and taking your time to make the right choice?.. haih. biarlah kan, asalkan mereka bahagia sudah.. haha.

what else… what else… hehe. lets make this one the longest post ever. to celebrate the 20th posting. hehe. i myself am amazed that i was able to write 20 postings. oh yeah, etp. engineering team project. ppl from the 4 engineering courses group up and come up with an engineering project. my group came up with the magnetoboard. our project is very similar to the child’s toy, where you can draw and doodle on the board without using any ink, and you can erase the writings as easily as you draw them. we intend on making an actual whiteboard based on those principles, to be used in classrooms and lecture halls. if it works, it would be a great invention, if i do say so myself, but so far, we’ve had nothing but setbacks.. but we’ve managed to overcome the obstacles so far, so pray that we are able to actually fabricate the protoype… huhu.

aha… here’s another thing i can talk about here. people and their blogs. now, im all for promoting your own blog. whats a blog without the readers rite? but i tell ya, some ppl, the things they do to promote their blog…. putting your blog link in your gtalk / ym status is fine, but to pm every single person in ur friends list about ur blog… lame~ if ur blog is nice, ppl will visit ur blog even if u dont promote it or EVEN if u dont even update it for 2 months.. lolz. haha. but seriously, try not to go overboard in promoting your blog.

i think i should stop here… hehe. its gotten too long. huhu. i wonder how many ppl fell asleep to this. haha. maybe i should make this into a bedtime story.. once upon a time, there was a blogger named yasin… etc2… and he lived happily ever after. haha. thats all from me. take care. live life to the fullest. learn the ways of the slacker. chill. relax.

till next time, whenever that may be… lolz.

chow.

i saw fireflies last friday.

yup.

oh yeah, instead of making a very eye-catching title this time, i decided to go with a more simpler one, and just go straight to the point instead of making u guys read the whole entire blog, only to find it wasn’t the best way to spend your precious five minutes. ahaha.

hi (or hai) everyone. personally i prefer hai, coz hi just looks weird. but when im writing in english, hai seems weird also. oh well. erm, the first line pretty much says it all. i saw a firefly last friday. how long has it been since i last saw a firefly? in case somebody doesnt even know what a firefly is, its those bugs that have lights on their… rear ends. yeah, its a REAL bug! lolz. of course you guys have seen it… but when was the last time you saw it yourselves? dont count the times you’ve seen them on tv okay.

i remember playing with those things when i was a little boy, plenty of times. at that time, it was something u see quite often. but that was years ago. and last friday, i was in the middle of nowhere. well it wasnt exactly nowhere, i was at a drug rehab centre in the interior parts of kedah. i followed my father to a wedding, the daughter of the person that runs that centre was the one getting married.

the reason im writing about this, it just suddenly hit me, the children of tomorrow arent even going to know things like this, actually exist. they’re going to think its just something made-up that often comes out in cartoons, like spongebob, or that purple-coloured dinosaur. so we should do whatever it is we can to help save the environment, to make sure these creatures wont go extinct.

suddenly im an environmentalist. lol. i checked, and it turns out these things arent going extinct anytime soon. huhu. guess i got worried for nothing.

i was planning on writing about my holidays, but i think im going to spare you ppl the agony of going thru ridiculously boring stuff about myself. there really is nothing to talk about. basically i just stayed at home, caught up with the lost series, south park. i couldnt even play games, since the desktop got busted. damn.. what a wasted holiday this has been. i didnt meet up with any of my long lost friends. didnt even get to go anywhere special since the redang plan blew up in smokes. boy, i sure was bloody upset when the redang plan got cancelled. you’d think you can rely on some ppl after knowing them for almost 2 years, but i guess you can’t… oh well. lifes like that. i can go all nite talking bout these sorts of stuff, but really, whats the point, so ill just leave it at that..

here’s something interesting. i was watching lost, in the first  few days of the holidays, and there was something that charlie did that caught my interest. you see, charlie was about to die, and he knew exactly when and where he was going to die. how did he know? well, theres this other guy called desmond, and basically, he can see the future. so.. this dude, desmond, he’s been saving charlies life over and over again, but apparently the universe has a way of self correcting itself, so no matter how many times desmond saves charlie from death’s grasp, sooner or later, he’s going to die. the reason charlie decides to die this time, was because desmond said, they were going to get rescued, (they as in all the people stranded on the island), and he particularly saw claire (charlie’s love interest) getting on a helicopter and going away, but before that happens, charlie has to die….

Sooo, anyways, before charlie dies, he lists down the top 5 moments of his entire life, intending on giving it to claire. and it got me thinking, ‘hmm, that isnt a bad idea after all’. not that i plan on dying anytime soon, (no worries ppl :D), but it is something interesting to think about. while at utp, i sometimes talk to my friends about something similar. its not a list of my top 5 moments in life, but instead a list of things i intend to do before dying. since the list of things i want to do before dying grows all the time, for now i guess i’ll list down the top 5 moments of my life, so far.

number 5 - all of my relatives from my mothers side singing me happy birthday, and actually getting a coconut for a birthday present from some crazy lunatic. lolz. close friend, act. u know who u are.

number 4 - coming into class 50 minutes late, with food in one hand,
thru the front door, and able to bullsh*t my way out of trouble…

number 3 - surviving one week stranded in sabah with friends.

number 2 - stopped a toddler from running into the middle of a busy road (basically, being a hero ), and although planned to keep it quiet, close friends found out.

number 1 - being congratulated by a total stranger for getting good grades. came up to me, shook my hand, and said she was proud of me, and told me to keep up the good work..

its not much really, but its my top 5. and for your info, all these things except for number one happened while i was in pasum.. so you can guess why i like going to pasum so much, and why even after 2 years i still go through the trouble of going to kl and meeting friends from pasum, and why i bother trying to arrange reunions when most of them dont really care that much anyways.. it was my first hostel experience. my first time doing everything on my own. the first time i met with ppl from various states, from various backgrounds. being exposed to the real world for the first time. my first taste of university/college life. those were the days..

dont get me wrong though, i like it here in utp, but in terms of the true college experience, my bet is theres no place like UM. when i first started in UTP, i felt a huge difference in UM and UTP. my god, the first week, i realised that the nearest shopping complex was about an hour away… and from that moment on i knew that life was probably never going to be the same, ever again.

oh well, life is full of surprises. you’ll never know where you’re going to end up in the future. i better stop here, im going to watch another episode of south park before going to bed.

till next time, chow.